Online/Offline Inverted Personalities

(Sorry about the cut-off video. I ran out of space on my iPhone.)

I find that when I’m online, I am “hyper expressive”. I want to interact with everything, I want to talk to everyone. I want to comment on everything. I have an opinion about everything.

When I’m out with people, I shut down these days. Instead I feel the disgust I have with people. Very rare exceptions.

In the past, it was the opposite. I would be conservative about posting stuff online. Actually I’d have writer’s block of some sort. I’d think my shit was boring and not want to post it. I’d be very socially interactive with everyone in real life.

I think the social introversion (in real life) is me being sick of the learned manners, the autoresponses that I’ve accumulated the past few months/years.

The online extroversion is an interesting thing. I find myself actually holding back what I say, since I’m aware that I’ve got so much to say. I find myself trying to not be such a fussy dick online.

I think I suddenly want to be risky and say lots of stuff online, but I don’t want to risk alienating my audience, however big it may be. (However small.)

Just like I have to fight the urge to be polite in real life, I think my next step is to fight the urge to hold back online.