Uninspired

Today I woke up at noon, meditated for an hour. Practiced the Ashtanga yoga primary series up to upavistha konasana. I didn’t go further because the other postures required rolling on my mat, and my mat’s too thin for me to roll on without hurting my spine. I think I really need to get a Manduka.

Meanwhile my mom had made lunch for me. As soon as I was done with my shavasana nap, I ate a bowl of noodles with broccoli and three hard-boiled eggs. For some reason after practicing the primary series I usually pass out. I’ve heard that it’s supposed to invigorate a person; I find the opposite to be true. So I napped from 5 − 8 pm.

When I woke up, I felt shitty. It was hot, my body’s sweaty and sticky, and I couldn’t concentrate because of the TV in the background. All I wound up doing was surf the web for ideas for how to design my site.

I recognized that I was feeling a aversion toward my physical and mental state, so I accepted that that’s how I was feeling.

Okay, now what?

I wanted to call Wendy and talk about my state, but declined because I wanted to do something rather than distract myself from my state. Since I couldn’t concentrate on designing, coding, or transcribing, I decided to work out my state by writing. So here I am.

Hmm, just took a cold shower. That should get rid of the dried sweat from this morning’s workout. I feel a little better.

Just did some transcription. Transcribing at full-speed was impossible. Then I tried Audacity which was what I used to record it in. It was too difficult to use interactively: adjusting the speed took a few minutes (versus on-the-fly speed adjustment in Capo), and everything sounded super deep.

I googled around and found Express Scribe, which was free for personal use. It seemed promising but the controls were unwieldy. There were no keyboard shortcuts to go back a few seconds, which was necessary every 30 seconds or so. Using the mouse to do this was unacceptable.

I remembered Capo and downloaded it. Then I remembered that I already bought Capo for the iPad. Since it’s a universal app, my iPhone would work as well. Downloaded it again, loaded up the audio, crashed. I guess it’s time to restart my iPhone. Loaded it up, and it’s beautiful! Speed adjustment by touch, going back in time at a swipe.

I started the day with my usual routine, felt crappy in the middle, recovered, and started work on transcribing audio. Remembering the impermanent nature of reality helped me through the crappy middle. Time to meditate!