Spreading Happiness

I’m sick. I’ve been sick the past three week. I have this persistent cough that, despite my efforts to eat healthier, exercise, take cough medicine, sleep a ton, etc. I haven’t been able to eradicate it. I’ve also been growing thinner. I’m already thin, so it’s pretty noticeable. (Though I think that’s mostly due to last week with Dave and the past two nights with Wendy, which really cut into my sleep time.)

I’m tired. I went to sleep at 5 this morning, chatting with Wendy until 4 and writing until 5. Then I had to get out of her apartment at 9:45, have dim sum with my grandma (and see Stephanie and her boyfriend), go to my Uncle 2’s place. Once there, I fell asleep, only to be woken up by my aunt to play mahjong. Eventually we ate dinner and I passed out again immediately afterward, exhausted.

I just took the train back. Despite my lack of responsibilities in the traditional sense, I’ve been busy. This morning I tried to label my “job”. “Full-time relative” describes the spirit of my motives, but I don’t only hang out with relatives all the time. I came up with “people person”, though it doesn’t describe the extent I do this. “Full-time friend”? “Happiness agent”? I dunno.

Getting back on topic, I was talking to my mom about how tired I was, but my cousin Jenny’s coming back from Japan in a few days and I have to deal with her. She said I don’t have to deal with her if I don’t want to. But I do! I want to see her, I rarely get to see her, and I want to share my good vibes with her.

That’s how I see myself these days. I go around and share my positive energy with people. I get people to think, to reflect, to be happy. I do this in real life and online with my writing. Despite my weakened condition, I am enthusiastic to use my remaining energy to spread happiness.

But of course, I should curb my ego. Ray is a person too, and I need to take care of myself. I need to make sure that my health is okay. If I don’t take care of myself, how can I help others?

Alright, time to meditate and sleep. Be happy!