Day 106/360: Out with Ex, then House 2

At the mall I did horse girl to a sales girl. She already heard it. I was unprepared, though I should have been, since I’ve heard it often enough. She politely tells me to leave.

We watch Terminator Salvation.

Everybody’s sick or sleepy. I’m both, but I still want to go out. I go out with Traveller and Poker Face. I’m petrified. Wow, such amazing approach anxiety.

I open a fat chick with the psychologist opener. It goes as well as it can, but she’s boring and so am I. I leave.

Poker Face and I start opening girls with just, “Are you having a good time?”, simultaneously. It was fun for a bit but my anxiety shot up and I couldn’t even do that.

A tall girl opens Poker Face and me. We talk a little, then walk away. Later on she walks toward us and I reopen her. We play with her a little, then run smart tests and smart/hot/rich. I get her number. She asks for my name and I tell her, “Brad Pitt”. We fuck around a little more but I get bored of her and let her go.

She gets her car. I yell at her to drive me to my car, and she does. Once at my car we continue chatting. I build comfort. I tell her I’m hungry and suggest a diner. We go for dinner and it’s the longest dinner ever. We’re both left tired and eventually she drives me back to my car and she leaves. She texted me after she left.

I feel I got a new friend, though it was not what I was after. Now that I’m back in my room, I wish I tried to get to her place, because I knew that her boyfriend was in Vegas. Her dog would have been the perfect excuse to visit. The majority of the night I was trying to build connections with her, to genuinely find out about her.

I’m getting better at building connections with girls.