Day 43/360: Beach, then Solo Night

Went to the beach with the promoters and Dylan.

109. B: Horse girl to two walking girls, walked right around me.

110. C<5: Horse girl to two girls looking at accessories. Not her, ejected.

111. C<5: Sex last week to two girls lying on the sand. Couldn't hear me, ejected.

There were a lot of people on the beach, but mostly they were in clusters with guys. So much fear, it’s ridiculous.

Went solo to a college bar. Danced a little, got looks from girls. Of course I didn’t approach a single one.

Decided I didn’t like this bar anymore. Drove to the local bars. Walked up and down the streets for two hours without opening anyone.

112. C<5: Situational. Girls were fighting, I inquired about it. Didn't follow up with anything other than mentioning that I wasn't from here. Bad positioning too, I was standing in front of her most of the time. Very nervous.

113. C<5: Two black chicks walking down the street. You're awesome, high five! Got it.

114. B: Girl walking down street by herself, “Free high five!” No, she couldn’t afford it.

115. C<5: Saw a girl smoking by herself. Sex last week. Not her, she's married. She was very nice about it. I ejected.

Going solo is still very hard, but I need to do it more often to build myself up. Still, it was good that I was able to go by myself. I don’t feel like, “Ugh, I don’t like going solo” at all anymore, not like when I first started a month ago. I just have the same anxiety I used to have with wings. I’ve just got to consistently pump my state up when I go by myself.

B: 2
C<5: 5