Revealing My True Self

I have been changing a lot these few months. I dress differently, I talk differently, I walk differently.

I guess these changes are slowly revealing my true self to everyone. My unabridged self. So I’m not changing myself, I’m just stopping the charade. So all this time, it was just a lie. All my attempts to be nice, were all lies. Maybe not all, but many.

I think I finally understand my old oneitis. When I told her I was in love with her, and later on said I wanted to have her in my life, even if it’s just as friends. She didn’t know if she could trust me anymore. Because all this time she thought I wanted friendship and nothing more. And I thought that I was being honest, in that I wanted friendship with her as well. Which, I did, at first. But very quickly I fell for her, and I had started lying at that point. I was pretending to be a friend, when I had developed feelings for her, and acted as one nonetheless.